amazing

2008-09-15T15:54:00.002+08:00

shifting house to my new BFF wordpress!

2008-09-02T03:25:00.002+08:00

Hosanna - Paradise Live

All the Nation come
They bow and sing your majesty forever
Every tongue confess that you are Lord.

Every knee shall bow
Declare your name that you are Lord forever
High and lifted up We bless Your name

In your holiness
I find redemptions song
In Your majesty
I find where I belong

Hosanna You are holy and exalted
Hosanna You are high and lifted up
Hosanna You are worthy of all praise
We worship You

picture taken during JUMP concert,
somehow a smaller version of what it means
of having multitudes and multitudes of people
giving God all honor and praises,
because of how he is worthy of our worship.

i cant deny your majesty,
i can only tell of your awesomeness,
expand this faith of mine that goes beyond my knowledge.

2008-08-21T13:07:00.003+08:00

thought that this was interesting,
something similar to the lifehouse skit.
I guess sometimes its so true that we are so caught up with all the sins
that we do that we are trapped so deep.
let go, reach out.

2008-08-08T11:11:00.007+08:00

I thought about this on the way to school today.
A sudden random thought I had when was I was thinking about an old friend.
Whether or not it is a personal opinion or not,
I’m sure it makes sense, to me at least.
It’s all about perspectives, try looking from another angle.

Living life only for myself, always giving myself the best as every other thing is centred around me, while holding back to live for others, that life is meaningless.

What do you live for?For yourself?

Start to look beyond yourself.

2008-06-27T21:37:00.005+08:00

a incredible video about the relationship between a father and son that mr chong show to us in class today!
well it will somehow show another side of the story and it would be that of God's relationship with us,
speaks volumes of a fathers love - one that reminds me of god's love,
unconditional love indeed.

what was one point that i take is that of the hope that the father gave to his son,
and indeed he really gave hope to his son for a lifetime.
And yes the son learn of gratefulness that is something that i want to apply too.
go read more about their story.
http://www.teamhoyt.com/history.shtml

2008-05-23T09:40:00.002+08:00

mans, i've been coughing non stop since don't know when,
that i feel as though im going to heaven to see GOD even before i finish my task on earth!
being sick since the first of may till now really makes me feel as though im dying!
in fact at times i feel as though im a die hard smoker who is having the consequence of heavy smoking! LOL.
but well i really got sth against smokers recently, esp when they dun realised there is sth called diffusion that im breathing in second hand smoke, and then it cause my lungs to react by coughing non stop. GOSH. if i ever get to be in the UN, i will ban smoking all over the earth. I know it affects the economics in some sense, but seriously wld they rather die or lose money?
oh well.

definition of cough:
A cough, also known as tussis is a sudden, often repetitive, spasmodic contraction of the thoracic cavity, resulting in violent release of air from the lungs, and usually accompanied by a distinctive sound.

causes of cough:

Allergies and asthma
Lung infections such as pneumonia or acute bronchitis
Chronic obstructive pulmonary disease (emphysema or chronic bronchitis)
Sinusitis leading to postnasal drip
Lung disease such as bronchiectasis, interstitial lung disease, or tumors
Gastroesophageal reflux disease (GERD)
Cigarette smoking
Exposure to secondhand smoke
Exposure to air pollutants
ACE inhibitors (medications used to control blood pressure)

shrugs im so scared i get chronic bronchitis.
Okay but that is serious case of course!
haha, god heal me because i have been trusting and
praying for healing over the past 2weeks!:)
bless me that i may serve you even more!
and yes i know i need to excercise,
perhaps i need more motivation in that!
someone can help me in this!heh.

by the way, one reason why i haven't been updating this
space here is because i'm finding reasons why i shld blog.
so if you are reading here, why not leave a tag and tell me
why you chose to blog?
well i have been searching for reasons, not because im lost,
but because if i can't find that reason, i will not have the heart
or motivation to come here often! haha.

PAY IT FORWARD, FACING THE GIANTS.
2 great movies, very inspiring, insightful, thought provoking.
in fact it is just a simple story/plot,
but yet i know there is a stirring in my heart,
and many others.
I want to pay it forward because i want to built generations of
word centered people that also want to continue to spread,
creating a revival!
I want to make god so real in every way that i live!
I want to lead my current team/unit like how grant led his team!
I want to be so impactful in my lifetime here, because i know that
god made me to do so!
I want to be faithful to god, loving him through all.

I want so many things,
but application is key.

`preparing the fields, for god to rain his blessings.
to be proactive in my faith, in the things i do, let god move.

2008-04-21T15:02:00.003+08:00

I who thinks that moose is really really dumb??!! (ps, i'm not being mean, but he is really funny) :D:D

hahah, this is a source of entertainment for me today,
i realized that i could make life in class much more enjoyable,
and that includes comics!
man i suddenly feel that i want to buy loads of archie comics!!
then i will read and read and read and read and read,
till will definitely forget to do QT! im quite sure about that!
hahah, thank god im not rich mans!

YAY, im really really hungry.
can you imagine the hunger in that small stomach of mine!
and the very fact that i have already defaecate much last night
due to tummy upset! gosh. lack of energy mans.
to the fact that whatever my friend said about the project,
simply diffuse through my ears!! hohoho

anyways if anyone has flexible time and good pay job offers,
please tell me, i have no time to work because there is alot of
ministry commitments that im joyful about,
but at the same time,i have family situations that call of me to support myself.
So one day work on sunday, that earns sufficient for me to survive!

haha, guess i have to seek of god's blessings too.
as i serve him, he will bless me:)

okay back to my time of archie comic:))))))))))))))))))

2008-04-15T10:51:00.008+08:00

I shall bring back my memories of all the past camps i had in YHOPE!
Still in counting though! In anticipation of the upcoming youth camp!

Central chalet camp,180degrees dec'04!
- haha, i only have one picture,
so here is a unglam shot of xanthe and me!
LOOK at xanthe's short hair!

My first official youth camp,june'05!
Ultimate dare camp!
-that is the then central 2 days, led by ethan!haha, look at the population of girls here!

ESPIRT de corps,dec'05!
-A part of central, known as
AOC (Agents Of Change) led by daniel!
We had jerseys okay! super cool!

Encounter camp,june'06!
- Central Cee led by elise!
consisting of STC,Cresent,fairfield,GESS,outram!
we were really big back then!
Breakthrough camp,dec'06!
-Central's frisbee team taking part in the HOPE Olympics! We were ZAI!:D

FirstFrontier,june'07!
-and yes the first camp i had with my new unit!<3 class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: justify;">

X29 Camp,dec'07!
-hahah, this is the 10th anniversary of yhope!
here it goes central 10th anni performance team,
missing dearest joanne LEE who was of great help!
everyone is black and white except me!

HAHA. i enjoy pictures!
maybe i should blog with more pictures in time to come!
anyways, school life is not that very fun!
but well i want to keep a positive spirit i suppose!

Oh anyways, i would be moving house soon!
not too far, either queenstown,commonwealth,buona vista areas!
hahah, probably ard 3mths frm now!
stay tuned for more!:D

Let me tell you god how favors me!
i was already tired since the week before after school year2 started.
Then due to time schedule BK and myself,
can only plan WFL on sunday morn,
then the sad thing was that i was working at night until 12mn!
So it was a mad rush of preparing the teaching and notes
on monday morning while listening in class!
I tell you i was really tired.
But thank God that i manage to prepare in time, and that the
teaching was not bad considering the amount of time!
I slept at 12mn after doing what i need to do after returning home
from WFL! and the next morning which is this morning,
i was actually feeling rather refresh as though there was no sch!
surprised indeed, but i thought that god's strength really was with me!
yeahh.

yays, FAT NINJAS later!:D:D:D

check back here agn!

for the welcome back!

2008-04-01T01:40:00.004+08:00

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if you even wonder.
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after reading through my old posts,
i realised that i miss penning down my thoughts here quite abit.
so yes i shall make a decision to come by here more often:)

and so school is starting and,
i'm NOT the least bit excited about it.
haha.

`enjoying worship to the fullest,
it makes refreshes me,
as always.

ilove my FAT NINJAS!

2007-12-04T09:55:00.000+08:00

And finally!!!!!
joallisonagnes decides to post something up!
heh.

prayermeet song((((((((((((((:

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There is an endless song
Echoes in my soul
I hear the music ring
And thought the storms may come
I am holding on
To the rock I cling

How can I keep from singing Your praise
How can I ever say enough
How amazing is Your love
How can I keep from shouting Your name
I know I am loved by the King
And it makes my heart want to sing

I will lift my eyes
In the darkest night
For I know my Savior lives
And I will walk with You
Knowing You'll see me through
And sing the songs You give

I can sing in the troubled times
Sing when I win
I can sing when I lose my step
And fall down again
I can sing 'cause You pick me up
Sing 'cause You're there
I can sing 'cause You hear me, Lord
When I call to You in prayer
I can sing with my last breath
Sing for I know
That I'll sing with the angels
And the saints around the throne

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'I know I am loved by the King
And it makes my heart want to sing'
this makes me happy:D
simple but true.


next week is camp!
woooots!
-making my chapter X29!!
-10th anniversary performance!
-2 international delegates with my unit!
-fellowship!!
-pictures and more pictures!

etc.etc.etc.etc.etc.etc

but i have to go school for test!oh my gosh!
bridget too!
jess too!
so many pple need to go back sch for those not in high school!

2007-10-08T11:18:00.000+08:00

What i want to learn...

"Learn to let go of your ways and embrace the way of wisdom and faith"
-shuyi's blog!
ways that goes wrong.
things that i thought it was best for me.
i guess for me often times, i want things my way,
because i enjoy dwelling in it.
What a sinful nature, cant deny that.
time to embrace.

"What Jesus did for me on that cross that day is still valid for me even though I don't fully understand it."
-stephan!e's blog!
back to the basics for me:)
let me want to know you a little deeper each day

"I have come to a conclusion that if we know who we’re serving and we love the one whom we serve, we’ll serve with joy and full committment."
-mellissa's blog!
indeed if you know and if you love,
actions comes along with it.

"He knew when i needed a yummy dinner to lift my spirits, He gave encouragement when it was what i needed to hear, He just gives so... lovingly and freely. (: my Father knows best."
-fungmin's blog!
and this is real childlike faith.
because my daddy knows the best for me.
simple love that overflows with trust.

"what about in your life? what have you done to prove Jesus' love lives in you and how have you lived it out to proclaim it?"
-angela's blog!
A child of God?
do i live that life that i am to be,
not of perfection from the start,
but growing each day towards and letting god lead.
obedience.

"before you my God, I can just come as i am. Sheep to Shepherd. Child to Father. <3"
-calean's blog!
i want to love you just as you are to me.
but your love is beyond anything.
i thank you for all laopa<3

2007-10-03T14:28:00.001+08:00

AND im back to planet earth!

Alright yesterday was a series of bad events!
1)keep falling aslp in class.
2)people cut my line when buying waffles!
3)forgot to bring my water bottle
4) Forgot to bring the teaching i was suppose to teach bridget!
5)no compassion taxi driver who con me of $2.50!!

well well!
event number five was really saddening!
i wanted to take a taxi home as it was really late,
in case my mum blows up.
then i assume that there is the nets payment function.
hop onto the taxi and then started talking to the MALE taxi driver as he drove
and i realized that his taxi do not have the nets payment function!
so i quickly tell him that i do not have cash with me so can he drop me off.
GUESS WHAT?!?!?!?!
HE DEMANDED $2.50 FROM ME:((((((
HE ONLY DROVE LIKE LESS THAN 1MINS, THE DISTANCE WAS NOT EVEN MUCH!!

oh my gosh.
im not sad about my money,
but like it was just a SUPER short distance,
he still demands the $2.50 from me!
shouldn't he be nice and just take it that he is doing a good deed?
at least i told him before i reach home and realize that i got no money.
AIYA! im going to boycott TRANS TAXI for life!!
hahahahaha.
okays finish ranting!

ooh!
anw i have breakthrough in discipline for the past two days!
i felt proud for myself can!
i manage to discipline myself to wake up can!
:D

anyway on the way to school yesterday.
i was sitting on the train with weiting.
so i was tired so then we were both sitting next to each other.
i suddenly thought about -familiar strangers.
its like now we know each other because of the fact that we are both in the same church.
but imagine actually im not in church,
then we be just strangers sitting next to each other.
i just thought that im glad that i came to know her through church!
weiting are you honored to be mention here?heh.
im suddenly reminded about people around me.
i'm thankful for all people who were part of my life,
be it through church, school, workplace!

i love my new towel:D
because it is from bridget<3
hee

2007-09-25T14:17:00.001+08:00

and my love for saxaphone!!
the kid version.
the very reason because im a childlike little girl!

but ever since young i like saxaphone!
then when hope bangkok came,
the love for saxaphone revived!

okay now for the classy and style one!!

2007-09-18T15:30:00.000+08:00

and i thought about something recently.

imagine yourself as a child holding alot of balloons,
each balloons consisting of what are our needs,
wants,opportunities,temptation,emotions,relationships,
friendship,thoughts,sacrifice
then there are some balloons floating around that we have yet grab hold.
well this is about choices and decisions made in life.
to what we chose to hold on to, what we miss out by being blinded by
all the balloon we are holding to.
but of course all the balloons consist of those that are essential,
like needs and friendship, etc.

then now imagine the balloons that we let go that floats up to heaven,
and dear daddy will start to collect all of them, some that has its own timing
to be given to back to us as it floats back down again,
some that are bad things then it be deflated.

we decide the things we want to hold on in life,
but eventually it is about the choices that we make,
some are good judgements, some are blinded judgements.
but we are short sighted people who cannot really know the best
for ourselves, we only think that we are that good, trying to put
ourselves above what we think we are.

i was thinking that maybe as we serve in ministry sometimes we wonder if
some balloons specifically those that requires sacrifice of time,
efforts, quitting of cca, etc, is it all worth it?
simple answer : yes!
because Daddy takes all the balloons and give back to us in his own
ways, simple understanding to he will not shortchange us.

hahaha. i don't think anyone would understand this entry,
because this is a rather childlike idea that i thought of during my
quiet time last week.
so you need to be a little child like me to understand this:D
heh.

oh i like this two words
"blockhead genius"
hoho, oxymoron!!!! :D
i want to be a blockhead genius:))))))

`one way to you

2007-09-02T20:22:00.000+08:00

oh my gosh!i finally uploaded it!

2007-09-02T18:47:00.000+08:00

i cannot seem to upload the video of mila in the central blog or my blog!
till i get to upload it, you all will be really seeing what crazy things can we do mans!

ANYWAY!THOSE CENTRAL CEE DARLINGS READING THIS BLOG, PLEASE GO CENTRAL BLOG HOR!

right now i'm wondering what am i going to have for dinner!
and im talking to dear hannah laopo now!haven spoke to her for a long time!
and tmr is central chalet!
there is central shirt too!
oooh i just rmb there is meta this wed!
and of course the extended prayermeet!
oh shrugs, im hungry!
and i feel for the need for grad's gathering!hahah.
AND I WANT TO MEET MY SHEEPS NOW!
thinking about it, should i have a sheeps retreat this friday?
HELLO dear sheeps pls tell me if you are available!!

oh and anyways, i just mention about chalet tmr to my mum,
and she is rather okay about it, which is superly shocking.
hahha, but thank god for the wisdom to speak the right words to her,
that she is alright with the entire idea about the chalet!

anyways, stopped working at sentosa already!
working at Nydc at holland soon together with bridget!
that god will bless the timing of this work so as that it will not be too tiring
and that my mum will be alright with it and that of course will not hinder ministry!

im hooked onto this song,
keeps running through my mind this entire day!

So I’ll stand
With arms high and heart abandoned
In awe of the One who gave it all

So I’ll stand
My soul Lord to You surrendered
All I am is Yours

`to lived a life that honors you.
making the best out of which,
till the very end,
and to hear the sentence
good and faithful servant.
you are just so true.

2007-08-20T18:21:00.000+08:00

random emotions.
jumpy and wondering.
it would be fun, but not for long term.
look ahead for what is better.
thought that this is the better way.

heh.
i don't know what i just typed!
okays this is called as no focused thoughts.

and things are getting much more challenging.
but of course i do keep the faith.
as much as what i know,
there will be a way.

*there is none like you,
no one else can touch my heart like you do.
i could search for all eternity long,
and find there is none like you.

`you have won my heart, and i'm yours.

2007-08-16T11:43:00.000+08:00

the blurred edited version of the pic!
and i like it!heee.
the sentosa pclm retreat!
that is the very cause of my pretty skin peeling.
my sad red face!
my friend got me aloe vera gel tho!
and sharlene getting me the sprayspray thing!and i have apple this sat!
yux wanna go find for me!hohoh
im blessed!:D
oooh, anw i enjoyed planning games and 'torturing them'!
hohoho. no la, about the 8sets of jumping jacks!woots!
dun kill me for that! but im so sure everyone was tired and sun burned!

and i like my skinnys!
heee:D then that very saturday we both look like twins from bottom down!
oooh and our suspenders next saturday okays!!!coolios!

in any case,
i want to watch all the movies my friends gave me in my dear laptop!
so that can clear off memory space too!
so date me!

then anyways, my holidays are coming!yays!
1)i want personal retreat i suppose!
2)and that there is central chalet!!!:D
3)i want to have a sheep's outing with my darlings!
4)MCG unit event!!!
5)short meet ups with my old friends!
5)working that im so not looking forward to.

`for i know you care.

2007-08-08T11:16:00.000+08:00

a team with different dynamics, i heart<3

yesterday we celebrated BK's birthday!
blessed 19th birthday again!heh.
and i tell you that david is supeberly funny like mr bean!:D
oh i learn some things yesterday about contentment, guess god has many funny ways to teach me new things and moulding my character.

`because of the plan.

2007-08-06T13:53:00.000+08:00

When something does not work out?
Ultimately the choice everyone faces is the choice between hope and despair. And what jesus says? “Choose hope”

The questions for us is-
1) Will you keep going when you don’t know why?
2) When you can’t get any answers that would make the pain go away, will you still say, “My Lord,” even though his ways are not clear to you?
3) Will you keep going with all the grace and grit and faith you can muster, and live in hope that one day God will set everything right?
4) Will you trust that God is good?

There is one person we know in the Bible is Jacob, who wrestled with the man throughout one night and realized afterwards that it was God. The man crippled Jacob’s hip and told him to let go, and Jacob said, “I will not let you go unless you bless me.”

When the man saw Jacob would not quit, he blessed him and gave him a new name : Israel. “You have struggled with God and with men and you have overcome.”
Why does God wrestle with Jacob? Why not just give him a blessing outright?

I don’t know the whole answers to those questions. I think it has something to do with the fact that God prizes that quality in the human spirit that will not give up.

God wants greatness in soul- people who will endure, wrestle, persevere, refuse to quit, and cling on to his goodness even when there is much they can’t see clearly.

`even when nothing seems so, I will hold on.

2007-08-03T22:56:00.000+08:00

BLESSED HAPPY 17TH BIRTHDAY BESTIE NPY!
fi fove fou feep feep!
chipchip hughug daledale tighttight deepdeep sniffsniff muahmuah!

your fav baby pic!
oh the nose!
touchNose,knuckleNose,tickleNose,movingFingersFunnyNose,zhuzhu!hehe.

for now i shall leave this entry as it is,
stay tuned for more sillybaby!

heart公主,loves王子<3

2007-07-26T10:42:00.000+08:00

The number of seats, the number of rows, - you decide;)

And I ask of DADDY that 32 can be done.
Heard many testimonies when we met up on Tuesday, and new encouragements and stories yesterday too.
The right spirit and the right attitude to start with, I’m proud of you girls ;)
Now I ask of DADDY to move in the hearts of the contacts and visitors!
32 all out for DADDY.

`because you will lead me on.

2007-07-19T14:02:00.000+08:00

a laughing pill,
that is needed.

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harry potter movie with elise, winnie, zach.
not fantastic but i thought it was not bad.

at the least i get to see this pretty girl!
:D

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i wonder how is 37 coming along.
now we ask, would you bless this land of ours?

`at the back of my mind, now.

2007-07-16T10:40:00.000+08:00

the awwwwwww ablum from grad's reunion:D
but this is excluding bridget,peiyi,tecksin who left early after dinner.
and stef,esther,lijin didn't come.

2007-07-09T11:12:00.000+08:00

A bday APPRECIATION to all who made my day special because you remembered<3

DMM - Elise, Angela, Winnie, Jess, Zach, Brandon, David, Daniel.

CENTRAL C - Bridget, Calean, Puiwah, Yuxin, Sherlyn, Mellissa, Mila, Sharlene, Valerie, Szemin, Jinger, Justine, Hannah.

GRAD’s & PEERS - Denise, Hannah, Steffy, Fengy, Stephsoh, Tracy

Meirong, clarice, yiyou, jeslyn, weiling, meimei, JoanneLee, huiwei, hazel, clara, celeste, june, grace, jinqi, Yenli, fungmin, Kelly, yunkai, Samuel, Sophia, hoeyee, huiyang, mingquan, minzhen, choonie, choonmin, gerri, delia, Stacey, evelyn, Sylvia, Claudia, cordelia, Zhisen, Helena, Sharon, Melissa, patsy,W24F:D

_____here it goes______

Special ones.
>Elise: my dear sheppy who once again made my bday a sweet one. Last year was just you and me, and this year there was so many others, but you made it sweet because Im glad you are part of it. Thanks darling, I can never thank god for how you are so special in my life. Indeed you have seen me grow up since I converted and im grateful for all your guidance in my walk with god. Thanks for trusting me in all that I do, I once again thank you for all the effort and love you have showered upon me<3

>Daniel: haha. Thank you kor kor! Hehe. It is funny how I really believe that it was a agenda type of ULM on my bday, but thanks for the affirmation and the prayer!:D

>Calean: thank you dear mehmeh for all the effort for doing the blog up and staying up till 4am while chionging your essay too! Im deeply touched by your faithfulness in everything you have done. And you know what, thank you for all the support you have given me.谢谢你 dearest sheep!

>Bridget: Bestie NPY! thank you for all that you have done. The very reason why my bday was a blast because you played a very special part in it. You wanted to make it really special and I really appreaciate that thought and the effort, successful or not, I tell u I thank god for you in my life and its that simple. Much to say but yet there it is definitely more than words to appreciate you in my life! And the very card that you made, its really sweet yeah. Thanks for your love as always<3 you always put that smile on my face, and on this day, it is the sweetest smile;)

>Puiwah & Mellissa: I was really surprised by the surprised carrot cake and appearance of you two, I was superbly touched by that simple but sweet presence of you two. And guess what that really made my day because it was a splendid surprise!<3

>Valerie: hello the tofu toy is really cute can! And the very though that you took time to find the tofu toy is very much appreciated. And of course the email although you could not blog it up as an entry. Thanks darling!<3

>Central C: thank you darlings, though it was a short time spend with you all, but yet you all made the effort to go all out to make my bday a special one for me, thanks my little sweeties, it realy encourages me a lot and I feel ultra loved by you girls! The surprise blog and the surprise bday celebration cum affirmation was really thoughtful. You girls are always full of surprises from that time when I just transfer over, during camp to now my bday. You girls put a smile on my face and I cannot thank you all enough for all, especially all of your presence that make this race really a happy one because I have you girls. Appreciation from the bottom of my heart dearest<3

>Denise: hello dear stead!hehe. I can’t thank you more than enough for making my day sweet! Simple action from you but i enjoy your presence. And yes the enjoy word you gave me in the morning really do come in handy<3

>Hannah: LAOPO! Man that post of urs is ultimate, cz it its super long and touching la! Hehe, its those words that matters and im really assured of our frenship that really holds in your heart. Thank you for growing up with me and most importantly thank you for your love wifey<3

>Steph soh: chiobu thank you for remembering my bday. And the for the choco and the card which I don’t know how else to thank you. It is the sincerity that really matters and although we do not know each other that very well but we are bonded by the Christ and im so glad I get to know you<3 thanks dear!

>Tracy: darling IP/brokeback! Seriously im so glad god place you in my life too! Many have left but yet you stayed on despite the many objections and persecution you had and I thank you for still impacting me in many ways. On my day this year, I thank for a frenship so true<3

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And the few people that remembered. I’m just so glad that our friendship has some place in your heart. And that’s all I can be thankful about. Heh.
To all who dedicated an entry on the birthday blog for me, thank you for all the affirmation and yes and I want to say that im loved<3
Ohs and being greeted with 7cakes made me fat, but im HAPPY still!hehe:D

Only one picture to show it all.

2007-07-09T10:00:00.000+08:00

18th birthday.
Indeed a special and memorable bday.
Although I was in a new unit, new DMM, new class-
Indeed a new environment for me which I really didn’t expect much and in fact thought it be a simple special day still spend with my close friends in church, but yet the surprises and blessings was way beyond what I could imagine.

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5th of july started with dear ELISE & WEITING wanting to surprise me at my house doorstep with a cake.heh. It was a failed attempt because I wet down my house earlier then they came up my house, I met them downstairs my house, but I tell you it was really sweet thought because no one done that for me before.heh. We had bfast together and took cab to school.
Thank you dearest SHEPPY and STEAD for waking up so early for me man:)

Then the next surprise was that I went to class and there was nobody in class, I really thought I went to the wrong class because it was abnormal for the early birds to not be in class, so I wenta check the class door again. Haha. Then later when the facilitator came in there was like only like 5pple in class only, I seriously thought what in the world happen that no one is coming school? Then suddenly the rest of them came in and sang bday song for me led by wanleng with a cake and a watch as a bday gift. It was really sweet because it’s a new class where I do not really expect anything from, but yet they remember and bother about it. And of course the video that skyler and huixuan did, its really thoughtful. Thanks W24F<3

After school I was so nice and went to meet WEITING in her class as I thought she was intending to accompany till ULM at 715pm. Then went there to stone and happily watch prison break while she wanted to watch her heroes. Yeah we wasted time in school and not knowing that actually dear WEITING was stalling time so that BRIDGET & ANGELA could appear in time to surprise me. Haha. I was super surprised when I saw ANGELA because she chop her hair and hence I couldn’t recognize her straight away, hehe. I was expecting more people then BRIDGET appeared! I was superbly happy because I really thought I won’t be seeing her at all as she successfully con me on msn that she is extremely sad that she won’t be able to spend bday with me. Hoho, and she appeared and make me day with big fat hughug:D it was a short span of time as ANGELA & me needed leave for ULM and there I gotta part with BRIDGET, I was sad but m really glad that she was part of this special day. And yes she unleashed the love declaration blog that have many people that posted, man I didn’t expect that.

Then we had ULM at haagen daz. But guess who appeared there besides the rest if the ULs? PUIWAH & MELLISSA appeared with a carrot cake, I was super touched because it was quite late already and I didn’t expect to see them and what more the very thought of wanting to get the cake for me:)
Then we had a ULM that supposedly supposed to have loads of agenda to settle before DANIEL fly to japan. Haha. But yeah I was con into believing that. And we had some sort of a fondue thing! Oh and I like the bag and shoes that the ULM got for me.heh:D well the day ended with happy affirmations from all of them which I really treasure.

When I reached home, Im greeted by a really nicely package and tasting cake that my mum and my bro brought for me. I don’t really expect much from my family as the love expression has never been outward, but im thankkful for them;)

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How different things was from the past 3years till this special day.
Perhaps I can say god made it special, saving the best along the years.
This 18th year, I can say for sure I enjoy it to the maximum.
The past 3years, perhaps a testing of my security, so now it will remain as forgotten times, I will look ahead for what God has for me.
I guess the best bday one can have is when people remembers,
And that is all that matters to me.
For this day god remembers, together with all the angels he send to me in my life.
Thank you daddy, your love,protection,patience,grace,understanding.

Just everything, -sweet<3

2007-07-04T16:07:00.000+08:00

wonder.
dream.
once off.

the art of understanding.

2007-07-03T14:19:00.000+08:00

Thank god for YUXIN & MILA & PUIWAH & CALEAN & SHERLYN & BRIDGET
For running the central c sentosa mcg event yesterday!
Though I was not there, but hey I’m really glad that it was a great event
run superbly well, the 2visitors enjoyed themselves:D
and of course the rest of the unit who al play a part in making a successful one,
indeed a great start for the unit’s momentum, lets all jiayou together man:D

and yes they played weird games which had really funny title name.
and of course we have mila’s oh so lovely wonderful cookies:D hoho.
It is simply the best;)
Although I seriously miss the fun and im simply missed by them of course-
especially dear calean and yuxin! There is evidence of their msg to me.
Heh.

today is a better day,
i think having personal worship at home is goody.
-you never let me fall,you hold me in your hands.

You built the love in my heart, deeper each time<3

2007-07-03T14:17:00.000+08:00

Mike was enjoying the start of his first whitewater rafting experience – until he heard the roar of the rapids up ahead. His emotions were flooded with feelings of uncertainty, fear and insecurity at the same time. Riding through the whitewater was the first-rate, white knuckle experience! And then, suddenly, it was over. The guide in the back of the raft had navigated us through. He was safe – at least until the next set of rapids.

Transitions in our lives are like whitewater. The inevitable leaps from one season of life to the next – college to career, singleness to marriage, career to retirement, marriage to widowhood – are marked by the uncertainty and insecurity.

In one of us the most significant transition recorded in the Old Testament history, Solomon assumed the throne from his father David. I’m sure he was filled with the “white-knuckle” uncertainty about the future. His father’s advice? “Be strong and of good courage, and do it; . . . for the Lord God, my God will be with you” (1 chronicle 28:20).

You’ll have your fair share of tough transitions in life. But with god in your raft you’re not alone. Keep your eyes on the One who is navigating the rapids. He has taken lots of others through before. Smooth water are just ahead.

`I am safe when the danger threatens,
For I’m trusting Christ the Lord;
Since He promised He’ll be with me,
Though I fear, my faith’s restored.

~god will guide you through the rapids of change.

2007-07-02T13:36:00.000+08:00

What strike me last week during the week,
‘A faith that costs nothing and demands nothing is worth nothing‘
Indeed how truth is that.

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Things have been going too fast.
Beyond what that can be done.
and the thoughts that flow,
Stop for the moment and think.
What had been triggered?
No idea.
Suppose it is what that is ought to think about.

`lover of my heart,the author of my life- all in you.

Sleeping away from what seems best.

2007-06-21T12:42:00.001+08:00

random pictures from camp:D

first presenting to you we have Central C <3

second presenting to you CC1-darling nanyang ladies!

thirdly presenting to you CC2-dearest st margs ladies!

fourth we have my dear grads :)

fifth the african tribal dances!hehs.

`because everything seems so.

2007-06-19T12:15:00.000+08:00

African business is finally over.
GAP! I’m afraid to hear anything related to Africa.
But I did enjoyed every part as I learn many more things about drama.
In fact maybe perhaps a stepping stone towards my drama ministry.
Hoho I shall wait.
Anyway, a big thank you to my AFRICAN TRIBE:D

This is the first camp I’m so so so tired.
Never did happen in my church camp history that I slept early at 5am,
It is always 7am or all the way.
I guess the accumulation of the many rehearsals and all about school,
my body is so not rested.
But guess what, god is my source of strength and renewal.
Hehs. That’s so expected but hey its true alright!

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Well many thoughts were triggered,
And I must say it was rather mind blowing.

#1 This race start it off and want to end it off well too,
Don’t think about getting off the track because it’s stupid.
I guess I get quite edgy about such things.
You want either serve to the best or dun even start it in the first place.
Often time a matter of fact that there is a lot of things to do,
that’s when we needed actually constantly let god be
the one that fills our heart and mind for us to know
why we do what we do.

#2 There is so much more to offer with our life.
Indeed chosen out of the multitudes of people to make a
difference in this world. The truth is that we do not have such
power or strength to do anything to change the world.
But this is our chance- and it starts with our schools.
There is a reason for people matter.
Your love ones, do you want them to miss out in this?
Then all the more it makes sense for us to share to HIS precious children.

#3 you have been blessed with so much, now its time to be a blessing.

#4 It is time to take a step forward out of our comfort zone, seriously life has more
to sticking to our temporary happiness, tell me what is eternal to you?
I tell you what im doing now is for eternity.
You wanna know how it feels, come experience it now at a deeper level.

#5 the first frontier. Take the lead to go where no one else go.
In fact, pretty scary because there is much fear, but I tell you its more exciting and definitely fulfilling life.
My definition of fulfilling life? You will know it when you take this race and be that mighty soldier.

#6 you are a Child of God. Extreme movements, serve to ur fullest potential or do not even start this race if you do not intend to give it ur all.

#7 a seed that die to self. Surrender my all, that’s when you can move big time!

#8 this is the generation that can impact the rest.

Alright, I type so much and I hope I do understand.heh.
Indeed a whole new experience in every camp I go.
Although this is the first camp I didn’t cry big time,
I know where my conviction stands.
Live my all that’s a promise.

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Camp is over and it is overflowing with convictions.
Praying together with my new Central C girls.
Saw tears of conviction and obviously many decisions made.
Indeed the trend must be broken,
And it starts from within our hearts and through us.
Shirls taught me this that quality must always be manifested in quantity.
Indeed these girls have the heart, now the stronger foundation and the deeply
rooted conviction, lets believe that HS will move big time in:
NANYANG – ST MARGS – SCGS – BOWEN <3
So lets wanna not just wanna grow our schools as it is,
There is a bigger picture-
a legacy that will change the generation of the world.

One sentence that Zachary said during PCLM’s worship.
`beneath the emotions and feelings there must be a decision to commit.
That must be what we want to hold to right after this camp :)

>no doubt, you have everything in your splendid plan.
take delight in all that you want me to do;)

2007-06-01T11:11:00.000+08:00

Was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do

Every time I see you falling
I get down on my knees and pray
waiting for the final moment
You say the words that I can't say
when I just don't know what to say
Why can't we be ourselves like we were yesterday

Don’t worry it’s not an emotional entry.
Just very random song lyrics that I came across from a blog.
Hehs. Personally I like to understand song lyrics quite a lot.

Okay time is so tight that I cannot breathe.
Africa Africa for the entire of next week till camp.
My white hair population will increase alright.
I have two other things to think about till camp too.
My dear three main thing that is happening,
I need chill pill.
With credits to ang hui xuan.

And my two weeks of break from school is no break.
First week which is next week im having rehearsals every single day.
Then the second week is CAMP.
So break is no break because the week after is SCHOOL again.
Its okays, serve is what is all about.
And it is fulfilling;)
Then anyway to make a BOOKING session for my dear grad’s-
On the 19th of june, bridget and I wanna book you all for reunion!
Movie shrek3 in town at 630pm, plaza sing.
Be there or be square :D
We will inform you all through msg again.

`those loving arms, there is none like you..

2007-05-30T10:53:00.000+08:00

A to F to D.
well done.
hooray.
anyway i'm not bothered.
i shall dwell in my world of Africa then.

today's module of the day for science
-heart matters!
okays that is random.

coffee tea or me?
hahah.ang hui xuan this is for you.
:D

ohs im hooked onto two words
-SWEET MYSTERY <3

`you mean much more.
if you come back to the beginning.

and this is mr tofu man.
with credits to clarice,heh.
her handphone keychain.

she studies hard.
i will needed learn from her.
anyways,jiayou sillygirl for ur exams coming up eh:D

2007-05-29T13:59:00.000+08:00

i like this edited picture,
and its really interesting.
ultimate declaration.heh:D

2007-05-29T12:36:00.000+08:00

I want to grow up.
I mean I needed grow up.
Attention plus expectation together with it,
sometimes you don’t get it.

Often time, thoughts just flow.
So pardon me for the random thoughts,
not meant to be not chim,
nor emotional,
just stream of thoughts.

You expect, I give.
You want, I agree.
You think about it, I share your burden
Who are your true friends?

Waiting for time to pass-
Appear now.

`interlock fingers

2007-05-28T14:35:00.001+08:00

I wonder what that was for.
Sort of a reminder?
You got me there.
Reactions?
That's about it.

It starts from today.
The direction, the vision.
Drop the word from today.

Anyways, i'm so excited for camp!
First Frontier' 2007!:D
A start of a new change and more breakthroughs.
And not forgetting my dear African tribe.
Hehs.

`to where you want to go.

2007-05-25T14:01:00.001+08:00

The Personality Plus Test

You scored 67 Sanguine, 60 Melancholy, 61 Choleric, and 46 Phlegmatic!

heh.that was what always think im.
this shows i do know myself quite well huhs.
haha:D

end of the week.
that makes me happy.
oohoo!

`take me to where you want me to be.

2007-05-24T10:17:00.000+08:00

to think that there is so much to do.
rather interesting,
indeed a blessing and a exciting challenge.
who else would dare to choose me but you.
dare me,game for it?
i'm looking forward to it.
rather fearful,
but he has a great provision for me;) just like a river flowing and the rainbow that leads the way.

above all,
he has a sense of humor;D

`let your excitement take you to where your insecurity can't.

2007-05-22T09:56:00.000+08:00

caught on camera.
my forever sleeping sheppy:)
sorry for the unglam picture.
you still look pretty in my heart.

and there we go the forever thinking sheepmate.heh.

2007-05-22T09:39:00.001+08:00

AfRiCa!
I do have a phobia of it.
events management eh.
what a perfect timing to give me such a responsibility.
I think this camp will be a breakthrough for me man.
and the very fact that new things are coming my way I suppose,
i wonder with much anxiety and excitement.
Keep me on firm foundation daddy;)

The sight of all,
brought those moments back so real.
How I wish time stopped at that fallen moment.
It just keeps coming,
that precious moment of connection,
all I ever wanted.

Not suppose to think about it-
I accept that.
Often time I’m out of my mind.
Will you enlighten me?
Once more, dozen of reminders.
stop dreaming, it will not be.
bring me back to be in tune with you.

`take this ride with me again, will you?

2007-05-17T09:30:00.000+08:00

i'll be your angel
(1)no mountain's too high for you to climb
All you have to do is have some climbing faith, oh yeah
No river's too wide for you to make it across
All you have to do is believe it when you pray

And then you will see the morning will come
And every day will be bright as the sun
All of your fears cast them on me
I just want you to see

chorus
- I'll be your cloud up in the sky
I'll be your shoulder when you cry
I hear your voices when you call me
I am your angel

And when all hope is gone, I'm here
No matter how far you are, I'm near
It makes no difference who you are
I am your angel
I'm your angel

(2)I saw your teardrops and I heard you cry
All you need is time
Seek me and you shall find
You have everything and you're still lonely
It don't have to be this way
Let me show you a better day

And then you will see the morning will come
And all of your days will be bright as the sun
So all of your fears just cast them on me
How can I make you see?

chorus

(3)And when it's time to face the storm
I'll be right by your side
Grace will keep us safe and warm
And I know we will survive
And when it seems as if your end is drawing near
Don't you dare give up the fight
Just put your trust beyond the skies

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rewind-
black and white memories.

the hardest word,
the mental thoughts.

NYTKIC

2007-05-16T10:21:00.000+08:00

Physics and more physics.
That is going to kill me in time to come.
No knowledge, I have no brains for it anymore.
Oh man, I just wish the module will focus more on the bio side.
I’m ranting and hungry.

On a lighter note, there is dinner tonight with
Fellow central c pillars and 3 grad’s(esther,bridget,fengy)
That shall be my motivation to go through this day.
And we can play bridge later.hehs.
It all began with yesterday when we had the grad’s reunion.
Not full attendances only Fengy,Hannah,Denise,Peiyi,Me!
Those who never come-REPENT!
Heh.just kidding.
But we did enjoy the time spend.
And we are hook onto BRIDGE.
Super addictive can!

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The story goes on.
It was a beginning, but it cannot continue.
it was once a fantastic moment of joy.
For now it will not remain the same.
No longer, not ever.
Tried to learn and remember,
Guess it was a denial stage.
Unchanged or not.
Who knows?

It’s the blow hot blow cold season.

2007-05-15T10:54:00.000+08:00

just a kid,still a kid.

if it was meant to be,
to be or not to be there.
what was the exact thing to do?

situational emotions.
thats the way of interpersonal skills.

`guide the path for me.

2007-05-03T14:45:00.000+08:00

crispy,sweet,spicy WANWAN!:)
elise and i like!
hehs.
while i was talking to her,
some particles of wanwan
landed on her from my mouth.
sorry man!hah.but it was funny.
its really entertaining to have this
shepherd in the same school as me.
ohs anyway,i wanna get the brown top
i saw at the pushcart downstairs!
elise you want?

the space between,
is where we will go.

`i stand on higher grounds.

2007-05-01T15:41:00.000+08:00

i thought english language did teach us about
being others centered from young.
examples of which-
my friends and i,
my family and i.
i made this realisation on the way to school
that day.and i thought its really interesting eh.
hehs.

oh did i mention i may have the lack of blood.
its not the monthly thing.it is the sort of fainting spells
sorts.hahhas.but well thank god today is a better day.
although im like stoning at home while all the students
in high school are mugging like siao for their midyrs.
heh.but hey i have went thru that torture before,
so everyone,keep the focus,once high school is over,
it is a different story in JC or poly.
but thats the excitement you will look forward to too.

potential.
take it back.

-INY

2007-04-27T14:53:00.000+08:00

this picture is rather interesting.
and its taken in Bangkok!

`you raise me up,to where i can be.

2007-04-26T12:37:00.000+08:00

Yesterday was talking to Bridget about or childhood.
Hehs. its kinda funny how young little kids like us relate to friends.
Remember those times you had to write autograph books?
Hehs.you will write poems,
then when dun have poems go copy others. lolz.
Haha.i use to have this habit of asking my friends to
let me be the last to write,
Because then I can copy loads of poems,
and of course see who are the friends
who treat me a their best friends.
It is kinda silly but this are the things we do last time.

The friends list ranging from 100% to 10%.
Which means the 100% is your best friend,
then when it’s the 10% its your enemy.
Its really funny how we can just write all these
without being sensitive to those who
are in the less than 50% range.
Haha.then it be so sad if you write some person as
your 100% but the person dun.
Hohos. I still remember for me sometimes,
hen I see friends putting me as 100%,
But I know they are not my 100%,
but will put for the sake of not hurting them.
Trying to act nice, but not realizing that it is rather superficial.
Oh well back then young and naive
and now we are older and more mature,
You look back and realize it is kinda immature and silly.

Was friendship based on who is and who is not 100%?
What more when you keep changing the 100% list,
Not realizing your 100& actually suppose to be your bestie.
Oh well this kinda make me wonder how do I rate my friends?
Do I have the right to rate them?
Mature friendships? That’s a deep question.

Perhaps I have the fear of having best friends.
Mmm,but I guess times has change.
God centred friendship is what that holds on forever till eternity.
Hahahs.i just wanted to type that out.

100%-trinity!:D
90% onwards?hehs,I shall keep you in suspense.

But hey I really treasure friendship a lot.
My dear friends out there,be assured alrite!
Bestie's or whatever-we will maintain this r/s!
Squeeze in the walls of my heart eh;) hehs.

`hold you me<3

2007-04-23T16:54:00.000+08:00

its just the beginning.

found but lost?
not in this lifetime.
this memories will go on forever.
in the past, the present ,the future.
take every single step.
thats the focus.
hold on,i will.

-HMOA.

2007-04-23T16:42:00.000+08:00

-every single tear
You feel insignificant, a whisper in the wind
Sometimes you think nobody knows your name
But there's Somebody watching over you
And He knows everything you're going through

CHORUS:
He sees every single tear
He feels everything you're feeling
He wants to hold you close and dry your eyes
Your heart is what He hears
When the world just hears you crying
No matter what the pain, He cares
About every single tear

Overwhelmed by circumstances out of your control
Hope can be the hardest thing to find
When you're like a heart without a home
You don't have to face this hurt alone

If God adorns the lilies of the field
And cares for every sparrow in the sky
How much more is He aware of your sorrow and despair
How much does He care about your life

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i'm hooked onto this song.
oh well sometimes i may doubt.
heart decisions?mind decisions?
i guess the falling back of dependence on you,
thats what you want me to do.

2007-04-20T15:52:00.000+08:00

The funniest thing happened just now.
It was hilarious to the max.:DDD
elise and I laugh non stop please!
Elise and I basically wanted to send breads
to weiting because she skip her lunch.
So then we happily went to her block and
then happily press level 4 and went to her room to find her.
We couldn't find her and then we even
ask someone to find her in the class.
But who knows the silliest thing is that when
we decided to leave it in her bag,
so we enter the room with the intention of finding her bag
and so we ask the class where was her bag,
It was only then we realize that we were in
the wrong class because the whole class didn’t know
who was weiting or denise.
Hahahs.we felt so embarrassed because we realize that
we are on the wrong level-her level is on the fifth!
oh my gosh.hohos.
but that happen because the fact that both
me and elise are on the fourth level of our respective
blocks and so we happily press fourth level.hehs.

oh well my presentation for today is over.
Today is last day of the week!
I have overcome the week finally,although my strength is dead.
Hehs.and I got a A for yesterdays’s presentation!:D
I haven’t get my grade for my science presentation yet.
So exciting!hahas.actually though I get the happiness through my results,
I was depressed doing the research and the work.
Perhaps I did too much,going the extra mile eh?
I don’t know but we shall see how survive through the 3yrs!

Oh should I start doing my QT on my dear laptop-dusk?
Anyway having shepherding later with elise in school!
I shall go find her later at her block.

`That's the moment I needed most<3

2007-04-19T16:15:00.000+08:00

energy bar low?
hehs.nope.
bridget's bar low!lols.

weiting don't kill me.
this is wat i keep saying to irritate weiting on the way to school today.hahas.
this is a confession of missing dear bridget!<3
aren't you honoured darling?:D

anyway,school is kinda killing me.
its not about the distance,more about what i do in school.
mmm but i won't let the PROBLEM BASED LEARNING defeat me!
-thats the problem,SOLVE it!-
oh well that sentence is struck in my head.hahas.
so far i have B grade on monday,and A grade on tuesday!

yays,tmr is the last day of the week.
and we are meeting as the pillars.

`those hugs,its struck<3

2007-04-17T12:22:00.000+08:00

school was rather terrible ytd.
cldn't do many things,
and what mre doing a lousy presentation.
what a way to start off school eh.
but well things have very much brighten up today.
hehs.thou i was made leader of the team,
i hope i did i gd job in leading the team.
lunch break and then time for presentation.
yeahhs.Daddy sustain me man:)

have you ever thought about it.
often many times,
the memories of the past.
wonder,imagine,yearn.

loving the way you love me<3

2007-04-12T12:11:00.000+08:00

elise!thats quite true!
in fact i will do it either during lunch break
or after school!hahhas.

anw school is gonna start in less
than 4 days time.
kinda scary.
but i guess im sure daddy will
protect and guide me:)

later i'll be gg to stc to get some stuffs
and to visit my CG:)
mm,im off for lunch.

`its the very way i love you.

2007-04-11T12:47:00.000+08:00

orientation is crappy
my thoughts right now-
im hungry.
im stoning.
wat am i doing.
i miss my bed!

its a rather terrible start to school,
but nevermind.
i will whine to elise later.

im happy at leaste cz i have my motivation!hehs.
and today is a special day:)
hughug<3

2007-03-29T12:54:00.000+08:00

yays!i got a pretty laptop;)
anyone wanna help me name it?
hehs.
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heart of emotions.
thru all the memories.
every single thought.
there is no letting go.
bring back the focus.

`gentle touch,the connection of you&me.

2007-03-22T22:20:00.000+08:00

-by the sea,next to your creation.

`i'll be loving you still forever<3

2007-03-04T22:58:00.000+08:00

and HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO CARYN! :)

2007-03-04T21:29:00.000+08:00

currently at Bridget Lin Qixin's hse!
hehs.angela dun kill me!?:)

anyway,i have alot of random thots.
mm,oh well.
tmr i needa go back to SENTOSA just
for musical fountain duty frm 6-9pm.
nvm.
hehs,the cutest thing happen is that my
4 sheeps is meetin me all tog tmr!
oh then another random thot is that
the postin results is on tue.
if i dun get into ngee ann poly,
i will laugh my heads off,becz my first
five choices all is ngee ann.

btw,qixin rape me today.
so i can officially say that she is in
LOVE with me:D
okays,thou the main aim of today was
to surprise her for her spiritual bay,
which was really a good one!hehs.
and to teach her guitar!
HAPPY 1YR SPIRITUAL BDAY BABY<3
as you head on on ur 2nd yr in this race with
HIM,it will be challenging,bt let him be the one
who leads you and anoint you so much as you lead
so many mre pple into this kingdom.
as long as he is with you,im sure you can go on far
and be a great influence to the pple ard you!
jiayou girl!we will run this journey together:)
yeahhs.i thk God for you in my life.

`there is nth beta then being in your presence once mre.

2007-02-27T12:03:00.000+08:00

i promise to blog and i will:D
anyway, im so happy:)
today is hot date with meirong then qixin!
thur is another hot date with minzhen then
meetin clique pillows for dinner.
fri is another hot date cum bdae dinner
with clique 6a after work!
hehs.

ohwell, when is my posting gonna come?
i wonder where i be posted to.

anyway im looking forward to the Central C
event on March 16th!and of course the grad's
stayover after the CC event!

oh ohs,water baptism is coming:))))))
11th march,i cant wait:))))))
i wonder who else is gg besides qixin.
fengy,sinyee,anybody else?
mmm,im still deciding on my name.
shall ask elise and daniel abt my choices.

`trust in you and not myself,
will always lead to blessings.
have your way in me.

2007-02-11T19:18:00.000+08:00

of all emotions.

judgement day.

nothing about it anymore.

i admit i was really disappointed,

but-

everything needs to move on.

humility and trust,

i will grow thru it.

i may be beaten for that one day,

but i will rise up again,

holding your mighty hands.

you will be the reason why i smile,

because i know you be there.

2007-02-01T11:25:00.000+08:00

yknow im kinda afraid of what to expect for o's.
and its like next week.oh well.
if i get good results i will go poly,into the course
i want.but if i get like 17pts,i will end up in jc.
i dun wanna make a decision i will regret,
but perhaps i just gotta trust in His's plans
for me.
so till the results comes,God show me ur ways.

anw,im excited to get my new hp and plan!
should be gettin it by this week.hahahs:)
tonite im working frm 6pm to 9pm,gonna be a long
day ahead.meetin meirong at 4pm at vivo!
okays gosh,im suppose to help sherlyn change her
blogskin,okays im out of here!hehs.

and my gallery of scenery pics as promised.

among all,yet you still chose me.

2007-01-30T22:11:00.000+08:00

you're my everything.
my greatest love of all.

ohs,im gonna post a pic whenever i post an entry;)
and i really love this pic.
basically anything that has sun and scenery:D
there will be so many in future.
hohos,i have a whole folder of such pics.

anyway,i have so many things i wanna do.
1)get a new plan&hp!
2)cut my hair!
3)buy my bag,jeans,rings,etc!
4)meet my sheeps!
and more and more,im lazy to type.

so awesome is your love,
so mighty is ur name,
amazing love reach out to me.
`you light up my path.

2007-01-26T11:57:00.000+08:00

seriously i have some love for scenery.
esp the sunset and sunrise<3
after looking at all these how can anyone say
there is no creator God?
then that somebody must be living in denial.
oh well,perhaps one day they will come to understand the presence of God.

`the many times you touch my hand,
thats when i feel im not alone.

2007-01-24T10:35:00.000+08:00

back from reality.

well, have been rather caught up
with work & rehearsals for performances
at CGS and for this saturday's ESS.

yesterday , went to surprise Lijin at her hse!
it was really crazy yesterday. the contents i shall
not describe,only those there would know wat
happen.right hannah&qixin&steffy&lijin?
hahhs. lijin i stole it from you:D
as im writing this entry,she has already flew off.
oh well im going to miss this girl.she is really
happy go lucky.really enjoyed her presence in
my life.gonna miss you babe:)

for the past weeks it had been great.
and dear qixin was a darling!
our rooftop scandal at vivo for the past 2 days!
hehs. i love spending time with you:)

later there is rehearsal at CGS then nexus!
a long long day! oh yeah, and i m gonna get
something for my dear anagrams:)

thank you for all.
its you i will reach out to.
i want,i will.
no turning back.
its a irrevocable calling.

smile on my face.

2006-12-22T10:37:00.000+08:00

Abcdefghijklmnopqrstu

I slept really late at 3am,
I woke up really late at 10am.
I feel so guilty for not meeting
Chloe,meirong,jeslyn on time.
Ahhhhhh.SORRY!
My dumb clock did ring bt its retarded.
Oh man, okays im just here to rant,
before jeslyn calls me back.
And now I need to do hsework first.

Okays she called me back.
I’m running off to meet poor chloe,
Cause jeslyn gg off to meet contacts,
And meirong needa go kallang 4 rehearsal.

Alrights ,tonight is confirmation.
So we shall see wat God has plan for us.
Praying for faithful contacts,
And their hearts for you.
Rain down your love so much mre tmrJ

`that’s because I thought of you.

2006-12-20T19:42:00.000+08:00

my dearest central C (x
i never knew whats love till i met them<3

-----------------

anyway a BIG WELL DONE for jeslyn,
chloe,steph for leading MCG well today.
althou there wasn't alot of visitors,bt i
seriously think you girls plan games,the
bridge diagram skit,etc very well. very
creative in fact. so i do look forward for
more creative ideas frm you girls!
thanks my coreteam members(meirong,clarice&the 3 of the above), the mcg
wldn't have gone well without you girls.
so lets move towards xmas harvest eh!
17 stc pple,i m looking forward to it!
are you?
hehs, i've 5 pple coming this sat.
clarice has 2pple alr.
as for the rest i dknw as yet,
bt i believe this sat will be a win win
thing against satan,becz we have DADDY!

okay okay, i tink we be evaxing at pri sch's
tmr becz they receiving posting results!
hehs.

anyway,
hannah cheang hui fen.
you were online just now.
i wanted to email you,
but i guess i told you all i wanted to alr
over msn, so nvm. hehs.
and so, i miss my laopo since sunday.
she's only coming back on friday:(
ehh,come back and give me my
deserved HUG okays!?

oh and my 3 classic beauties.hAhA.
stumbling.lolz:D only a few gets it.

`let me take a ride back with you.
the rain along with memories.
-only us.

2006-12-20T19:15:00.000+08:00

okays today's post is dedicated to Daniel.
i thot i lost the paper okays.it was pretty
funny, cz it was in my breakthru book,
and i look at it almost 3 times bt i din see
the paper. finally, i found it, bt i went offline
alr. hahhas. so here is it for you daniel, you
wanted it, and becz im too lazy to email, i
shall just post it online.

but really sorry, if i had mre time for
more inspiration,it would definitely be a
much better poem.yeahhs. perhaps another
time i shall write one nicer one for you.
for now, i needed focus on writing finish my
song for elise.hohos. i hope elise is not reading
this.
okays, here it goes the poem for dear daniel;)

this poem is entitled
-The Ordinary Man.

Someone who knows,
One who cares.
He doesn't just believe in you,
But he entrust.

The tears shed,
Meant more than that.
The many stumbles;
The many falls,
For all, he never gave up.

He speaks like the norm,
Clothed typically,
A simple man.
But not just any simple man
For he has come so far.
Perhaps, he's not so ordinary afterall.
---------------

oh by the way, im employed already!
i'll be working as attraction host at
sentosa! i had training already,so now
im just waiting for when i be starting
work. although im posted to fort siloso,
the place i told God i won't wanna end
up at. but i guess my dear daddy has his
plans to help me have certain breakthrus.
the fact is that the place is the largest area
to cover as a host, and that i have 8pages
long of history to rmb abt fort siloso. BUT,
i will be strong and grow thru it.hehs. i knw
daddy will protect & help me in any way.
oh im working on my working place pple!
so im not exactly not doing ministry too,
in fact i'm!hehs.so no stonning of me!
okays so if any darlings are gg to sentosa,
give me a message, i can go visit you all.
hhahs.but i have yet started work yet, so
i will update you all again.

`taking the ride back with you again.

2006-12-17T18:43:00.000+08:00

and i love my frisbee team;)

oh well im finally alive.
i bet you people must be wondering what
i've been busy with eh?
#1-o'levels and mre olevels!
#2-grad's stayover,chilling out with pple,
seminars,etc alot of things la.
(i have a exciting life after exams can!)
#breakthru CAMP!!

but now im moving forward to xmas!
harvest harvest growth growth:)
people crossing the line of salvation.
people growin in their spiritual walk.
people-love God, love people.
people matter to God.

in fact camp did sth really special to my
people n myself n all of youth.
just look at how we flood spore
to gather contacts. haha.
thats the spirit.
proven not by words,but thru actions.

a worker wants to finish his given task
you have given it to me.
i will go where you lead.
sucess is already there to claim.
the divine task of all.

makin sure my spirit is kept close to you,
not just knowledge,its experience.
ur faithfulness,for all-i thank you.
you touch the depth of my heart.

just that journey back again.

2006-10-23T19:05:00.000+08:00

Your eye is on the sparrow,
And Your hand, it comforts me.
From the ends of the earth to the depths of my heart
Let Your mercy and strength be seen.

You call me to Your purpose.
You alone can understand.
For Your glory, may You draw all men
As Your love and grace demands.

Chorus:
And I will run to You,
To Your words of truth,
Not by might, not by power,
But by the Spirit of God.
Yes, I will run the race,
'Til I see Your face.
Oh, let me live in the glory of Your grace.

-thats the route to take,to run till eternity.
the mre i know you,the mre i understand.
everlasting ur love will shine when all else fades,
i will hold on to that amazing love till forever..
satuate me so much mre..

^my god is mighty to save

2006-09-21T18:13:00.000+08:00

its been so so long,
neglecting this blog.
maybe i shld just close it!
anw prelims are over finally.
papers coming back,i m scared.
just kinda in a mel mode today,
coming home like straight aftersch.
wells,just a random entry.

spoke to dear steph;)
she is a darling okays.
we're gonna have our sunset n
sunrise date in 15yrs time.
dunno when but we will go okays!!
yes n with dear hannah:)
boohoo,she is only coming back
spore nxt yr jul.bt nvm cz she be a
really sweet girl to bake me apple
crumble n get me loads of nice chocos
from auckland:)))))
hahhs.steph:its written here alr,so i'll
definitely rmb it!!i shall wait in expectency.
wheee:D

im really excited for the grad's cg stayover!
really really really pray i can go.
i really wanna spend special moments with
my darling sisters:))
-our gifts exchange for children's day,
food mania,worship nite,heart to heart talks,
crazy games,logging together n perhaps
sunrise(if we can stay up).man im so so
looking forward to it!!
i love these little girls.
shoutouts->weiting,hannah,fengy,steffy,qixin,
esther,peiyi,lijin,tecksin:
no doubt,you all always make me smile;)

-daddy thks for being with me thru this exam
period,the times when im in lack of strength n
wisdom n all,you been there,even thru pple.
thou im really scared for my results esp
maths&English,God i wanna trust it all in ur hands.
be it anything,i want you to lift me up always.
let no disappointments drag me down,but instead
to build me up.laopa,my studies is the test of my
character nt my knowledge,allow me to hold on strong.

_`all this precious moments with you by my side-
you are my life my soul my all.

2006-08-18T19:46:00.000+08:00

me & hannah my dear wifey:)
i'm the laogong,she's the laopo.
we're one year apart in age.
well today is the day we known each
other for 2year5mths.
HAPPY ANNIVERSARY BABY<3
and its really encouraging to know
that she have been in this race with
me since i came in hope in 2004.
well,this sister been a great blessing
to me through this journey.
all those lil'hugs n msges means alot
to me.although we only deepen our
relationship this year,im just so glad its
moving n growing to a deeper level.
its never easy to mantain a relationship,
bt girl i believe this year is the step,
remember what i said abt 15years later,
thats the pact i wanna make with you,
we should make this pact with each
other n daddy:)
this race till 15yrs later and till eternity,
i will not let you go instead i'll pull you along
-supporting and enocouraging you.
let daddy be the centre of this relationship,
and i'll see we being the partners to win
every battle for this race.
i see your conviction for CGS and
those vision given.you be able to do great
things for God,because of that simple desire
and that perspective and that love.
you go girl!you will lead ur pple well,
with god's anointing upon you,fear is
nothing,only courage n faith :)
baby i love you <3

*anyway im happy because i have
dedicated this post to my dear laopo:)
*also because tmr is service day where
i meet daddy n pple i so love:)
*and i thank God for my orals today.
although i knw it was not a gd one,but
i trust in you,just like my chinese:)

you're all that i want,in my heart n soul.

2006-08-13T15:35:00.000+08:00

random thoughts:
*thank you for my B3,chinese result.
though i expected a poorer grade,
but you bless me with a better result,
and it would encourage me further.
my other 6 subjects i put trust in ur hands.
oh my english oral this coming friday.

*i'm so happy she has decided to recommit
her life in this race again:)

*and i want shepherding next week!
because i miss elise already though i met
her like yesterday.hehs.

*hannah cheang hui fen:)
have you decided to talk to me agn?lolz.
anyway,a early wish here cz i wun be online.
blessed happy 16th birthday dearest laopo!!
i can't wait for bush party silly girl!
tuesday morning madness:D
missing you baby.

*okays i just realised i missing hope pple
even thou i met them yesterday.
clarice,jeslynjr,hazel,clara,huiwei,
june,fengy,qixin,weiting,steffy,angela,
minzhen,choonie,tracy,xiang,fungmin,
etc.claire n esther whom i din meet ytd!

-deeply in love.
In my life You've heard me say
I love you
How do I show you it's true
hear my heart, it longs for more of you..
I've fallen deeply in love with you..

You have stolen my heart
I'm captivated by you
Never will you and I part
I've fallen deeply in love with you

You and I, together forever
Nothing can, stand in the way
My love for you, grows stronger
each new day.
I've fallen deeply in love with you

-you said.
You said, Ask and you will receive
Whatever you need
You said, Pray and I'll hear from heaven
And I'll heal your land

You said Your glory will fill the earth
Like water the sea
You said, Lift up your eyes
The harvest is here, the kingdom is near

You said, Ask and I'll give the nations to you
O Lord, that's the cry of my heart
Distant shores and the islands will see
Your light, as it rises on us

2006-08-10T15:19:00.000+08:00

not for long i be back away from the world.
being alive in the world wide web is so near
yet so far.but i chose to leave it out.
what is more important?
i m becoming a nerd,but not a total one.
i need more extra motivation to study.

well anyway,i enjoyed central event
very much yesterday.
games,cannoeing,firsbee,suntanning,
and thou not able to catch the sunsetting
becz of the clouds.
manage to catch up with some pple:)
thou sadly i wanted to catch up with
two,bt its alright,maybe a nxt time.
last year on this day i was with tracy n
choonie.bt this year i din manage to,but
i still rmbed.i miss you both ALOT!
and someone.

just thinking of the question.
"are you doing okays?"
all it means is to be able to stop the
heart from hardening before its too late.
seen many come n go.but i don't wanna
see those who were close to me n those
who had impacted my life in one way or
another,just losing that focus.
well,i don't have the power to help,
but at least i try,and do my prayer of
blessing,i hope it will work.

the race you promise to run.

2006-07-19T22:55:00.000+08:00

held in all.
bringing glory.
the land of love.
promises made.
he's moving,
hear the sound of revival.

where are you?
alllow me to be ur shoulder when you cry,
let me be ur angel.

2006-07-05T21:48:00.000+08:00

i heart these little angels<3

it started with the many msges.
BIG THANK YOU TO ALL WHO MSG!
and here are the people who made my day
today:)))))

`weiting-ur msg almost made me cry!
serious!and i really appreciate you frm
the bottom of my heart.thanks for the
egg mayo bfast n milo.i love you sweetie:)

`xiangyu-just that call at midnite
and its enough to make my day:)
its just pure sweet becz you're the
only one who ever sang a bdae
song to me over the phone.
just that love i appreciate,
thanks loads baby.your call is that
special gift to me today.
i love you my only one:)
man n that msn nick for me,
plus the blog entry, i m just so
blessed to knw you sweetie.
just be sure im here always for you baby.

`hannah-thanks wifey:)
i'll also support you all the way thru all.
let me be alongside in this race
with you alrites!thats why we are
fellow sheepmates!
i love you darling laopo:))

`june-buddy buddy!keep that
vision n we will do so much mre
in this kingdom!stc n fmgs can
grow a mighty generation.
it starts frm us.lets do
it tog yeahhs.i love you dear:)

`qixin-thanks for the encouragements!
you spur me on to do so much mre for
daddy!yes,GOd's vison n we will strive
towards it!i love you dearest chicken wing:)

`gerri-boyfriend was a darling today!
hehs.thanks girl for the lunch and the
company today!really appreciate you so
much becz you matter to me.sch and life
wldn't be fun without you.ur fav pastime
of irritating me.bt we still love each other
eh!i love you dearest:)

`elise,daniel,angela,esther-
that bdae song just outside tbp!
just funny bt heart warming.thanks:)

`elise-darling beloved shepherd:)
thanks for the day today!
just so blessed to have known you.
just those love,time,gifts,
i m jus so glad daddy place you in my life.
the day at ben&jerry's i really love.
seriously appreciate you in many
areas man.just you that matter.
you be in my life n i assure you
u will nt leave,take my word.
the day with you n me n daddy its enough.
thanks thanks so so much.
i look forward to every wed,just with us:)
i love you sheppy,i really do.

today,a day end with smiles.
thou i din look forward to this day,
bt i knw daddy u made it special.
and becz of these lil'angels made
it complete.its special becz of you all.

the moments i will rmb.
because you mean more than this.

2006-07-04T18:59:00.000+08:00

just that heart,its enough.

oh well,my brains are being cramped up.
rushing of subjects.
69 days to prelims.
120 days to o'level.

yesterday was fruitful!!
meeting jeslyn for shepherding:)
meeting weiting to plan many things:)
havin reunion at jenica's hse:)
today's shepherding with clarice:)
its nice to spend time with you all!!
i m waiting for mre.

okays.
the fact is im not excited abt tmr.
my day of the year,being 17 yrs old.
thats all abt it.

suddenly reminds me of 17 by 17july.
people are you all on for it still?
its 13 mre days to it.
lets give it our best shot eh!!
makin this impact for eternity.
stc future,this kingdom,we must
advance.we will do it,our BIG DADDY
will do it.c'mon girls:)))
lets do this together,this faith,this
extra strength n anointing.
we will rise a strong generation.

daddy,you secure me.
thats enough.
5mths,gonna be tough,
bt i knw you be there,
holding my hands and tell
me everything is gonna be fine.
just to fall back to you always.
keep me with you.
im assured,i keep this faith.
this promise,this vision.
you mean more than this.
_Real You.Real Word.Real truths.Real people.Real true Love_

2006-06-21T16:27:00.000+08:00

-the complicated relationship.
she's myOnlyone,im herOneAndOnly(:
she's the boss,im the slave.hehs.
she's the hamster,im the marshmallow:D
she's gg 18,im gg 17.
we love to chill,be random and stone.
thats us,there's mre to come.
actually i put this pic up becz we both look
great.hehs.and xiang wld agree!!:)
alrite very random post.
sign off with my pretty face and her pretty
face with honour to hammy.hohos:)))))

2006-06-21T14:10:00.000+08:00

trading my sickness.

top three crappy things.
#1-never have stupid fever.esp high ones.
it seriously mean taking ur life away
okays thats too serious.but the truth
is fever with terrible throat and bad flu
all comes out as a big mess.gosh.you neva
wish to experience it bt sadly the white
blood cells in our body cant make it.its
hard to prevent it.excercise?healthy food
and drinks?i do hope it helps.bt well.
i choose to stick with zero comments.

#2-never to have cramps.maybe only
girls understand.so i shall just keep it
a short one.the feeling is crappy.you
can experience it urself.fullstop.

#3-when you have nothing to do bt the
truth is u have tons of work to do.and that
reality who wants to face.oh well,not me and
my not so healthy physical body,i fail to live
up to reality and i will fall back and rest.
but i can't stick to that forever.i guess i have
to switch back engine to whr i come frm.

okays i hate being sick.and my throat is
crazy.my flu is bugging me like crazy.
pills are useless i must say.the doc say it
only make me feel beta bt i thot it made me
worst.bt i shld not complain,at least im feelin
beta now then on sunday n monday.
the least i knw the high fever had fried my brain!
anyone wanna buy me the sick soul honey lemon?

thur:studying with qixin my dear chicken wing:)
then maybe have floorball match in the evening!
fri:informal cg.havin lunch then go minds cafe!
sat:my fav day:).meetin God and darlings of yhope!

_hannah:hey darling wifey.you be strong girl:)
just rmb im there to go thru it with you.let daddy
take control.you be fine yeahhs.i'll be there.
_minzhen:daddy will give you strength & comfort
alrite.you can just rant to me anytime:)

just that thot of surrender.
can i realli give it all to to you.
you mean everything,
you deserve everything.
my everything.
daddy let me realise the need
to allow you to take control of
every area of my life.
i don't want a yet another falling.
i want you to hold me tight.
whenever i fall,i knw i'll be safe in ur
arms.be by my side.take my heart n
hands with you.
take it all.
i'm nothing without you.

2006-06-17T22:40:00.000+08:00

take it one down.

school is gonna reopen .
i haven really done much work.
everyday have been so pack with
church stuffs.but i m glad its all abt
daddy,yhope,central,CC,CC1.
its always holidays.

i want my chilling session.
*elise-our stingray hunt!food hunts!
*xiang-our chilling out at ur hse!and our dream thing!
*jinqi-study and chilling session!fly back s'pore la!
*claire-i need u to bug me to study!catch up!
*minzhen-our studying plans!and the one year is coming!
*tracy,jies,weiting-our family gathering!
*anagram's-i miss our jamming session!
*team4&5 for holycomm-our retreat!
*hannah-i wanna spend mre time with you!
*steffy-i really meant wat i said in my msg to you!
*weiting-milo dino!mre cycling!bus rides!
*esther-our choco date!dec come quick!
*june-chill out talking sessions okays!
*sinyee-we need to catch up!!serious!
*tracy-brokeback fountain,eat mre sweets!
*choonie-we gotta spend time under the stars rmb!
*choonmin-you crazy girl!fly back s'pore!
*angela-fly back to s'pore!i wanna talk to you!
*TLCGM-17 by 17th july!33 by end 2006!
*meirong-you will get well soon!missing you!
*jeslynjr&clarice-lets have talking sessions often!
*hazel-meimei,you're miss by me!my hugs!
*louisa-get well soon la!drink mre water!
*joanneLee-you many questions girl,i wanna knw you mre!
*qixin-go find a name for urself!!chicken wing nt nice!
*celeste-you chouchou!me&Louisa smell gd today!
*huiwei-catch up catch up!we haven talk deep for a long time!
*fenghui-you smart one,teach me maths!
*clara-finish ur hmwk ahh!lets chiong this week!
*sandy-i see you first now mre often!!nt wet nt dry(lol)!
*daniel-i forgot to ask you to pray for me for vision!
*all jc pple-jiayou for ur upcoming exams!go go go!

many random thoughts i must say.

part of that world,
to cross this line,
i can go the distance.
because you are worthy.

2006-06-12T17:08:00.000+08:00

encounter
everything just awesome.
i love daddy so so much.
just those four days in camp,
those times i heart.
i <3 daddy and yhope darlings!

shall blog or write my journal another
time.gonna meet my darling shepherd later
for dinner.i hope she is awake now thou.
i m sick with 37.7degrees.but i dun even feel
sick,which makes it funny.hehs.

i <3 ANAGRAMS

2006-06-07T01:25:00.000+08:00

many random thoughts.
but well the point is that camp is in 10hours
time:).i m really so glad.

encounter the fun,fellowship.filling of the
holy spirit:)
just that excitement,catch that.
and the central cee band-anagram!
the truth is im so glad we join
bring it on.it just brings the bond
within us.performance on fri.so exciting!!
i <3 anagram's!!

camp camp camp.
nxet four days,its gonna be amazing.
i m so sure abt that.
fill me anew,breathe in me.
those vision to just keep coming
the sight of the rain just pouring,
flooding the land with that one
soul kneeling down.

falling to my knees,
you to breathe in me,
to be found in ur embrace.
to touch me once again,
one word frm you will change my eternity.
this camp i put my heart to it,
just you and me and yhope:)

2006-05-27T10:37:00.000+08:00

just around the corner.

chinese o'levels.what's that?
heh.well im not prepared for it at all.
anw holidays are finally here.
bt i m flooded with lots of hmwk.
maths,bio,lit,eng.
then its no longer consider as holidays,
perhaps hmwk days.
oh well stop complaining joanne!
bt i must say a L1R5 of 22 is booboo:(
i will get no where.
im suppose to go first three mths for fun,
then go poly.at this rate,how to scorce 13
for prelims?!well,i need mre smart brain
cells,seriously:)

mmm,encounter camp is coming.
and i have so much to plan.
for the entire june and esp camp.
challenged,unite,bond,relations.
wat mre the goals by end june.
so far yet so near.
my brain feels so cramped up!
gosh.well,planning requires time okays!

daddy i pray that you will shower ur love
to ur children.those who aren't really doing
well spiritually,they need so so much of you.
laopa,give them strength and comfort,let them
know you are in control and you be there thru
all with them.they just need to learn to trust in
you.well,daddy i miss you so much too.allow me
to hear you mre.vision for the mth ahead.
mre of ur ways in my life,i trust in you:)

remember me this way

2006-05-20T21:45:00.000+08:00

it just seem so messed up now.
just that few words.
everything is crashing.
this week is just nonsense.
oh well.results and that incident.

i guess today i felt much better.
after the many rants to many pple.
im just so glad i m in this hope family.
thanks for the support and concern.

i want to go cycle-weiting?,
or just stone around-anyone?
maybe just bus rides non stop-gerri?
to forget all that is happening for one day,tmr.

so much mixed emotions being torn apart.
just can't think of the right things.
maybe why from the start,
with that decision.
sinking deep through all.
emotions runs high.

negative thoughts is a sin.
daddy take away those thoughts.
help me to have this faith in you.
let me knw you will go thru it with me.
maybe you are testing me,
bt give me the strength.
physically,mentally,emotionally.

more of you always.
dun wanna be on my own.

that moment,rather not.

2006-05-18T00:31:00.000+08:00

(this's jo's typewriter again.)
haha.
i'm going to have brain cancer soon, own time own target.
its doomsday.
(can you dont be so pessimistic, stupid?)
i'm just having random thoughts..
i just disturbed a number of people.. including this typewriter.
(one word 10cents can?)
weiting is such a con-woman. she's from pluto and yet she can think of much thoughts..
(you're such a meano too!)
and i hope i will be able to come back and blog by myself too!! soon soon.
and i shall go disturb cc1's blog too!

brain tumor coming out soon. (:

2006-04-11T17:10:00.000+08:00

blast everything away.

i woke up at 7am n manage to reach sch by 725am.
hahhas.thats quite pro alrite.
gerri thinks i m crazy today.
eve too.bt its true.pretty high today.lol.

im suppose to be studying bt i m using the com
in sch to blog.im an ass i knw.hahhs.
oh well,gonna start mugging agn.
like a never ending trail.oh well.

was thinking abt the Holycomm retreat for team4&5.
dear choonmin n minzhen you two can plan.
bt can it be during june when we are mre free.yeahhs.

anyway,i finally realise something about myself.
i mean i m very sure abt that firm fact.
elise i wanna tell you about it.

seventeen.
its amazing how you always seem to use pple,
pictures,numbers,basically anything to remind
me abt it.hehs.
m still convicted abt it.
me and weiting were talking atb 7,12,17.
and its gonna happen.
we manage to hit 12 and in one or two weeks
time seventeen is gonna come alive in stc.
yeahhs.
darlings are you all still thinking abt it?!
lets continue this journey of faith.
ester service,i anticipate.

oh yes.
by the way.
nothing say.
wat they are doing.
so many,so much.
sad to say bt its true.

nothing means more than you.
i can promise abt that.
that constant reminder that you are near.
you put that smile on my face always:)

2006-04-05T16:32:00.000+08:00

hahha.im finally blogging!
yeahhs.im in school.the library is ultra quiet.
i haven been alive online.
i bet everybody miss me!!
gosh.
another 2mths without a com.
im dying bt its good cz i can concentrate to study.
oh well.today is kinda bad.
bt well,i knw everything is in god's hand.
yeahhs.

123456789-peiyi type that.

i believe seventeen is so attainable!!
shower your blessing in the land of STC.

-some things left unspoken for.

2006-03-25T00:13:00.000+08:00

hello. this's joanne's temporary scriptwriter.
she has instructed me on what to write.
mm, we went guitar hunting today.
she was being irritating, and we spent one hour plus in the shop!
hahah, BUT! the guitar bought in the end was 130 with a guitar bag thrown in for free!
yay, we now have a CG GUITAR!
aint that exciting!

btw, the cg momentum is building up.
and that's just so exciting!
hahah. aye.
actually, im kinda tired now jo.
but i guess you're already asleep!
PIG! haha.

mm, much thanks for calling me these few days.
you sacrificed alot, i admit.
like, one minute of your time? lol.
but you neednt eat my breakfast.

what else!
ohyes, prayer meet today was powerful ain't it!
admit it man! hahah.
i remembered the previous one, was one day before i set off for lumut.
anw, seventeen for christ.
dont be irritated la.
i wrote so much.

and, this girl had 3A1s for her common tests.
L1R5 was 14.
and! she complained.
i still havent counted.

aiya, i wrote too much.
haha. SO!
see you tomorrow stead.
:DD much love.

2006-03-16T12:37:00.000+08:00

these special moments,i heart.

yesterday central outing was really great.
its been one year plus ago since dec chalet camp that
all the centralites gathered tog as one for great fun.
the games were crazy.weiting said i basically i fell in
every oneof it.lolz.perhaps i have poor balancing ya see,
or i juz chiong in each game.hahhs
water captains ball is madness.land captains ball is easier.
i love dunking ppl into the sea.bt the first to get dunk was weiting.
minzhen happily dunk her then weiting grab her too.hohos.
n guess wat,im the third one to get dunk by minzhen.
hazel,clara,june was the nxt few.hahhs.
oh yes i finally realised that i enjoy sitting in the sea and just
talk.minzhen we shld do tt often nxt time,n of cz nt let daniel catch
us.lols.and no worries,the fish wun swim into our shorts.hehs.
anw choonmin was super funny during the game of captains ball.
imagine her screaming for the ball every moment.hahhs.
the funniest part when she n minzhen started to snatch the ball
frm each other.me,choonie,jinqi,june went to 'help'.hahhs.
yes all of us end up all wif scratches pls.bt i was the one who stole
the ball away finally.only me n minzhen in the same team,the four
of them were in the same team.bt guess wat.the ppl scattered off
alr,so the game ended wif the six of of trying to get the ball.hohos.

and my dear minzhen did the most happening thing on earth!
she went into the gents thinkin it was the ladies.
gosh.i scream for her to get out.hahah.it was hilarious pls.
oh yes i was suppose to piggyback ppl!!
bt everyone think they are too heavy for me to carry.
end up minzhen,choonie,elise,weiting all piggyback me.
i shld eat mre to convince them to let me piggyback them in
future.hahhs.

the best part for me was the moment when the sun was abt to set.
thou i was suppose to watch the sunset wif xiangyu,my only one.she
didn't come,and i was sad.bt nvm man.we can go watch someday tog.
maybe during june camp or maybe after ur a's n my o's.yeahhs?
oh well-the pink,blue,orange sky wif the sun setting.
captured in my mind,its just so magical n beautiful.
no words can describe that special moment,not even pictures,
you've gotta be there at tt moment to view tt amazing sight.
choonie,minzhen,claire,elise,weiting-i wanna go watch the sunset
with you gals someday again.are you all on abt it?yeahhs.

it was one of my most tiring day.bt at the end of it i had so much fun.
the sun almost burn my skin away.hahahs.the water,the games,the
new bonding wif ppl of other units,the catching up wif certain ppl,the
sunset and definitely the great bunch of fellow central people(:

_every now and then,i wanna go old wif you-watchin the sunset_

2006-03-13T13:09:00.001+08:00

amazed at the wonders of ur creation.

everyday,every morning,every evening.

ur love showers upon me.

i stand by the window,

the beauty beyond description.

you took care of me so dearly.
_the abundant love you gave_

2006-03-12T20:57:00.000+08:00

its time to break it.
now or never.

the light sets in,
in times of darkness.
your hands were there,
to bring me through.

the night sky filled with the wonders of ur creation.

2006-03-12T20:43:00.000+08:00

long gone.

the march holidays.
so many things to be done.
loking forward to
1)TLCGM matt CG on tuesday.
-east coast park.
2)central outing on wed
-sentosa
3)shepherdings.
4)service!!

bring back this revival in this land Lord.
17 for stc.
216 for central.
750 and mre for yhope.
we live by ur way and word.
with this pure passion.
with this hope we cling to.

_to be held by ur love always_

2006-02-14T17:25:00.000+08:00

_its this much of love i need_

2006-02-12T19:43:00.000+08:00

okays.Valentine day is like in two days time.
i have no intention of gettin anyone anything.
oh mann.feeling bad bt then again,i dun only
show love only on this day!hahhs.
so i m gonna go hm n sleep on valentine!
horny!!you are suppose to call me!
hahhs.oh i rmb,my mum may be dating me!
oh yes,she say we will go eat sushi tog!
hoohos.im looking forward to that.yayys.

oh yeahhs,i m suppose to study now.
my 'beloved'chinese compo.hahhhs.
today was a crappy day.it was fun even
thou we din do much.hahs.
bt we been cheated of money at TCC!!
hhohohs.oh well,horny and stead,lets
do work nxt sunday!so tt we wun spend so
much.hahhs.weiting you gotta treat me n
minzhen good instant noodles!!lolz.
and minzhen you owe us food at nanyang
someday when me n weiting goes there!
and you can come my puny schhol to visit
puny weiting!!hahahhs.

looking forward to:
#1-valentine day!!
eating sushi with mummy(:
#2-friday swimming carnival!!
i cant believe it that im gg to swim for the game):
#3-sat wired service!!
yayys.eve says she is coming.i m gonna ask gerri!!
#4-sunday food and study!!
with dear horny n stead:)

happy days of the week:
*13thfeb with dear princess_cathy.
*15thfeb with dear twin sister_huiwei.
*16thfeb with dear IP_tracy.
*17thfeb with dear only one_xiangg.
*18thfeb with dear wifey_hannah.
*19thfeb with dear shepherd_elise.

okays.shall end here n be hardworking.
happy early valentine's day to all:))))))

^holding ur hands in this pathway.
im assure,so secured.
i love you daddy.

2006-02-06T19:13:00.000+08:00

this was the song that gave me the
inspiration for my blog name.
its been amazing how i manage to
stay in hope for so long.
someone who is never ever committed to things.
what more to church?
surprise?bt i stayed on and im growing strong.
well,i think i have learn so much since i came
to hope two years ago.
indeed daddy have change me so much.

life in hope had been filled with wonderful memories.
the people that have impacted me along this race,
daddy have place them right by my side,
the love,the support,the many encouragements,
and so much mre.running thru my mind.
those times spend,i treasure.
this race wouldn't have been easy without them.
and of course the main character of the day!!
my dearest beloved daddy i heart always!!
he been thru so much with me,i wonder how
much grace he have shown to me man.
the many sins i committed.
he's really patient with me.
his love for me overflows pls.
hehs.i m sure my life wld be really screwed
if i never come to know him.
oh well,tmr is my day.
my spiritual 2year b'dae!
im really excited.thou im gonna spend the
whole entire day in sch,bt i m gonna be a real
happy girl tmr!

*Your eye is on the sparrow,
And Your hand, it comforts me.
From the ends of the earth to the depths of my heart
Let Your mercy and strength be seen.
You call me to Your purpose.
You alone can understand.
For Your glory, may You draw all men
As Your love and grace demands.

Chorus:
And I will run to You,
To Your words of truth,
Not by might, not by power,
But by the Spirit of God.
Yes, I will run the race,
'Til I see Your face.
Oh, let me live in the glory of Your grace

^the end of another year,
the race is still going on.
im holding on to your hands,
i dun wanna let go of it.
two years,ten years,and forever,
keep this forever love for you,
remind me always.
no regrets cause i knw this the path.
you shine the path thru my darkness,
the lighthse of this race,i will run.

_the day when i met you,it all begins(=_

2006-01-27T22:02:00.000+08:00

actually i realised jay chou's song are not bad.

oh well,it took me long.hahahah.random pls.

mm,cant wait to knw the new changes.

nxt week i cant wait.

oh yes,cny is like one day away.

gonna grow fat once more.

running deep within.

what's happening.

lacking of it all.

lead again once more.

*
I could run away
You would never leave
You will always stay right by my side
Oh, right by my side
Right by my side
And I need You
I need You
Every step of the way

_take me away with you_

2006-01-19T17:05:00.000+08:00

this picture frm dec camp.

i think its really nice cz i did it on my own.

hehehs.

am planning to do a super nice one

with all my fav pics.

you knw the all time favourite!!hahs

oh yes,theres definately sth wrong with me.

come let me explain my illness.

here it goes,havin headache for the past few weeks,

and its so on off thing tt perhaps i may faint one

fine day.hahahhaa.

imagine the fall off the beautiful stairs in sch?

rolling down like a big thunderous ball?

smashing my great head thru the window?

oh gosh.this is gettin into a corny post!!

hahs.i think my brain is shrinking in size.

sooner or later it will just become pea size!

ah huh!i knw it will just explode into million pieces..

and then.......

KABOOM!!!!

gone,everything.

juices of my smart brain all gone.

all because of this on off HEADACHE!

gosh.im definately a cranky person.

not enough H2O??

maybe,bt the stress is coming soon.

i feel it n i knw it.

bt i dun want it now.

its not even the mids pls.hahs.

------

im afraid again.bt i will pray for you.

_believe you're definately faithful_

2006-01-12T17:04:00.000+08:00

rain the sun out.

its been crazy rains everyday.

and i'm quite sick of it.

well,in a way its a blessing bt

also a bad season to rain.

gettin struck everywhr i go.

bt xbox is fun with horny:)

oh man,its so random.

oh well.

since the prata gang reunion to

the NBs party,it just rain like theres

no tmr.

perhaps there isn't.

singapore shall just flood.

i seriously think the rain is gettin into me.

school have been relatively alright.

not much of a stress yet thou.

saw,smile,nothing,it wldn't be.

clash of the century.

bet with it,the game of face.

live with it,next days.

go on,its only a matter of time.

something light here then,

i doubt anyone understands that paragraph.

oh my fingers are freezing cold.

maybe im falling sick.

hah,how i wish.

oh mann,how m i gonna bathe now!

its like under -10 degrees pls!

gosh,im a mad nutcase.

oh yes,no maths test tmr.

how great.

and im gonna eat my noodles tmr!

ahh yes,im gonna attend MOST of my cca

frm today onwards.i wanna continue my A1 for cca.

_you'll be here to protect me_

2006-01-03T18:16:00.000+08:00

terror.

oh yes the first day of sch.

i enter the office only to accompany gerri,then

and my mad old principle caught me,

for?my hair?!gosh.

mm,my hair that stands up on top,

im fine with her talking abt it.

bt saying my hair is short?!

gosh.she makes total no sense pls.

the worst part is wat she ask me to do:

<<<<<>>>>>

trim ur hair bt do not cut it??!!

oh my gosh.that totally don't make sense to me.

at the end of it,i wld only have shorter hair n she

wld just scold me even mre.

everyone cldn't believe tt my LONG hair can

actually get caught!!!!shocker pls.

in fact was super irritated at first,

cause i dun see anything wrong with my hair,

bt towards the end of sch i realised n rmb wat she said,

that totally made me feelin beta,

realising that sentence.lolz.

---

oh well,if thats the way how she pick on me

4 no reason,i knw i cant do anything abt tt.

hahah.im glad partner reminded me that:)

i m just gonna be loving n forgiving then!!hehs.

---

mm,anyway,i totally think the sch is mad.

ending sch at 315pm every mon.

think abt the monday blues man.

how am i gonna survive.save me.

sch ending at weird timing everyday.

gosh.

at the end of the year my brain juice wld

be all drained out.

imagine that.

---

okays,looking forward to prata gang meetUP!

hahs.much mre to that.

oh well,just pray daddy bless me before sunday,

cause im alr broke on the first day of'GREAT'sch!

---

tmr another day of mre amusing things.

oh yes,n i gotta do sth'nice'to my hair.

have no idea how m i gonna do tt,

gonna look like a geek pls.

i shan't think abt it.

_i knw you're in control_

2006-01-01T11:19:00.000+08:00

two zero zero six.
a new year,i don't knw wat is gonna happen.
many challenges ahead.
not sure of the plan daddy has 4 me this year,
bt im sure i wanna keep in step wif him thruout.

balancing is all i need.
how m i gonna do it?i've no idea.
trust in wat i need.

memories of the past year.
runs thru my mind.
many things has change,not as before.
bt i guess all things change 4 a reason.
definately tears,joys,hurts,fun,excitement.
at the end of it,i shall treat it as a experience.
i'll stand up strong again.

maybe.
the change.
maturity.

friendships,mre to it.
expect.

_you'll be there for me_